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I can't put too words how i excite myself talking to my girlfriend.It's absolutely splendid now that she's back. Feels like im on weed with my eyes all wide and heels over headz.

Felt groggy the whole morning or afternoon ,walked pretty much like a squirrel around the house (yknow the feeling you get after spending the whole day in bed) Had a dead leg and i started struggling to move!

Gah Low on socks and boxer briefs!I'm going to use shirts and put them together with strong tape and my legs through t sleeves bet im gonna waddle like a penguin,

Going to KL on t next friday till sunday.Both elated and disappointed.Elated that i'm at least leaving t country.Im just gonna look at it positively(:

Getting my ipod tomorrow,oh gosh its splendid to have my music on wheels now. My whole playlist.Have been constantly using my 4gb nano which is totally bleah.Mines the 120 one though!Spot me w my new black ipod(:

Gah broke my mood ring that love gave to me,it sort of doesnt change color anymore. Ive been cursed,any thing that might be breakable would break in a couple of days:/ Time to scour for a new one): It smells kinda weird,little weird play dough smell but im sniffing it like some arabic perfume now.going all fuzzy in my headz sooooon.

Practicing for talentime soon,next wed and thurs devoting my breaks w wayne.

I got my new shoes as well!Macbeth Eliot!Definitely going t be one of my favourite shoes.




Im having ribs on Sunday.I cant believe i havent eaten Pork Ribs ever or that i dont recall eating them.St Lois Ribs at Cafe Cartel~ 
Its a date~

I seem cheerier!Probably because Benzema is headed to R. Madrid.Not that i support them, its just that Benzema (Man U's target) is not going to Man U.HAHAHA!Any team that hinders Man U's plan is an ally(:
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Cant seem t get t sleep much these days, only probably in t late hours. Im one nocturnal son of a gun.PSYCHE!im just pretty darn excited t get my ipod in t morning!Been watching videos to pass mes time.Hell motivated to write songs tour the world and play shows.

Visited t SPCA on Tues,it was srsly run-down. If i owned a huge mansion ,i'd totally let SPCA vacate my house and let the pets stay there. Saw this incredible cute kitten who kept putting its hand through the metal grills trying to grab something or anything. Got my hand punctured by its pesky nails. I once had a stray kitten that looked exactly like that gingery orange fur w that oh so adorable paws.i still wish i have a dog a bulldog 0h well):

Oh and I love the FTSK Album!I can't wait to listen to them on my ipod!
Get the album,Underdog Alma Mater, on ITunes!!
Listen to :She's a Lady
                 Hey Brittany

 I'd face anything in the world just t be w you.

Had t biggest scare ever in my life,Half of it's over.Just keeping fingers crossed just in case.Spent t whole day in bed with a brief moment for dinner and Simpsons on starworld.Read Breaking Dawn.It's probably one of t best books that really made me felt like i was together in t fantasy.It seemed so real.


Currently,I've this obsession for Macadamia nuts, its causing my tastebuds t turn crazy.
Im even contemplating cabbing down just t get it.

Went t the DaVinci Exhibition on Wed,Quite interesting some parts.I wouldnt mind going back there again.Wanted t get some merchandise but $10 for a keychain seemed more of a daylight robbery to me.It's quite fascinating to know "secrets" of the Mona Lisa.I've no absolute idea that there were flaws( A damage made by someone throwing a rock,cracks made from steam,paint drops on t painting),& apparently it still is invaluable.Headed to Pasir Ris from J. East t sell my guitar.The buyer was somewhat decent so i gave him a $100 discount on account that he was an air traffic controller (My previous ambition of being in the air transport industry gave in to his teary-eyed beggings).Right now i'm searching for an acoustic guitar t keep my music going.


I worked on a cover once two days back, Nothing close t splendid but do check it out still.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E18EYONYijA 

 Two more days,and you'll be safe in my arms.Safe from everything my dear.I promise you,no matter what happens.You'll be in it forever.

I love you.

Two things i want for my birthday this year

1. M.E.L.I.N.A  M.C.K.E.E my loveable girlfriend
2. Funnny my oh so adorable puppy bulldog that i will own sooner or later

OH GOD.Im srsly gonna beg my mom to let me have my puppy.Im gonna pay whatever costs it'll take.Be it medical fees,cushions,toys,food,bed,whatever.I would even take care of it.Think of it,taking walks w Funnny with nena beside me.Just laying in bed trying to jostle for a better position w funny.Teaching him how t pee in his toilet.Playing wrestling w Funny.Having picnics at Botanical Garden.Just laying at home,watching TV.Fighting crime and t forces of evil!I dont care what others say of you.Oh my sweet sweet bulldog,How i yearn for you.

P.S. Does not apply when concerning girlfriend.

Sometimes i just dont understand humans.I wish there was someway i could read minds.I cant believe how people can be so reckless to plan something so dangerous and yet crazy.Im close to speechless had it not been for t crazy sensation im experiencing now.

Ugh.My eyes feel like something has been jabbed in there for hours.Staring at TV screen for 4 hours and next the laptop screen for another 4.Been playing Guitar Hero ever since i reached home,Its seriously fun id sad.Even though it's GuitarHero3.My hands are experiencing a wincing pain.Im clueless to how im ever going for band practice tomorrow.My back has this strange ache after just two laps of freestyle , which is quite rather worrying.I feel dizzy too,i guess its true when sweetheart says im very vulnerable to illness:/

Anyway,I bet you guys have seen this poster on Mrts and Buses which are strangely amusing.Its silly,getting PhuaChuKang to act as a spokesperson for the Courtesy campaign.For heavens sake,he isnt even factual!Secondly getting someone who does take the bus or cab (Well,PCK & his wife takes t car or a cab,I can't imagine tai-tais taking buses.) Thirdly,Isn't PCK the one always being t kia-su person in the family.Hmm.
Oh well,another epic failure.

Well,after 4 hours of GuitarHero,I might just put addiction to GuitarHero under a description of myself from now on.Its seriously addictive,i dont know how people can have RockBand/GuitarHero in their house and not play in daily!Serious Fun.I could do this for days,or weeks even.

How I wish sweetheart would come online now,Its been probably days since ive last talked to her,a week since i last saw her (on skype).Absolute bummer, heck im gonna cont waiting.Anyhow,its t closest i can get to keep my hopes high.She's probably in Vancouver now, or maybe Washington:/ I miss her far too much.But as long as she's having fun,its all worth it(:

I changed t blog skin,looks far more pleasing to t eye now.

Ah,im done here.Off t watch another episode of Simpsons.

 

Oh and have i told you guys about the rat that loves putting fingers up my nose?

Where've you gone?


Ive been dying to reach you. 

Yesterday for the first time in 4 days,I finally talked t you only.Thought i didnt managed t converse t you over skype.I'm still happy nonetheless.I'm glad that you're having fun.Watching Londoners in their daily activities feeling the bitter coldness of London.Im absolutely sure you'd come back feeling overdressed in singapore.I managed to get some sleep last night before watching a movie.I woke up w my mom pestering me about my red eyes.I cant really put to words how much i've missed you.I would absolutely doubt myself again if i could do it once more if you go overseas ever again.Im being absolutely selfish but how can i not be when its you we're talking about.The other day,char asked me what'd happened if i were supposed t work in another country t support you.Faced between two massive heavy decisions,I took long to weigh my options.I then told char that I'd give up any job in the world for you even if it pays a million dollars.Zach once said,giving the example of your parents.Would you rather be rich than have a tight loving family(not that your family isnt).I'd chose a tight loving family over anything in the world.My mom said once i have my own house i'd get my own dog.I can't wait t live with Funnnny and you.I know this post is splattered all over.I just cant put this into words really well.

I can't really live life.Every street i pass,I see something that reminds me of you.
Carrot Cake at Kopitiam.Seeing another couple in our place at that couch at Coffee Bean w a laptop infront of them.174 bus.Fort Canning is an absolute tear gusher.Even gramaphone at Cathay,I remember this area in the stall right next to the counter where you stood there looking at horror zombie dvds,i knew perfectly in my heart that you're just waiting for me t wrap my hands around you and i did.And how about walking past Yoguru at Raffles City.I couldnt even let my heart lead me t take a walk around the 2nd floor at Raffles City.Lets not forget about each time i drive past your house.I cant help but to hum a song any song just to keep me from thinking of you.

Right now you're studying in Brussel.I can't believe that the time you came online was so precise that just the moment you said i love you i was about to close msn down.Im sorry i had to leave you before i could talk t you.It was t most heart wrenching thing i had to do after sending you off.Im sorry,I miss you,I love you,I need you.

If they say that a loving lasting relationship is just a chapter of your life,I guess my life only has one chapter.

 Moral of the damn fricking story:Don't fucking turn on MTV.

Everytime i take a sniff of your jacket,Everything just comes back to me.
I miss every single nitty gritty thing you do.
Theres this lump in my throat right now as i heave in another breathe desperately.Tears are shrouding my vision.My heart beating so hard if only you could see this now.I need you.Nothing could make me feel better other than you,as i shamelessly cling on to Simpsons which makes me look oh so loser-ish.My eyes hurt from all the Zoo Tycoon i did last night.I spent t whole day today lying in bed.For t first time today,i went t the living room,I write sins not tragedies was playing leading me straight back into my room.Im sorry my dear.Im just not strong enough t go on without you.I absolutely dont know how t handle/imagine you leaving for canada for 3 whole years.Oh another leak.All my "plans" have disapperated and im left here with nothing but to wait.I dont even think i could try the 150things.I did learn the waltz though but i realised that it hurts when youre practicing alone.I felt so weak and feeble today,i tried leaving the house today t run an errand but i just couldnt find a way to do that.I just felt so lonely,like i lost the entire world.I need you my dear.I need you.

This week has been the worst week ever.
Big Deadlines.Mike Newton.Disappointment in life.Parents intervention.Classmates.Failed Projects.Low Attendance.Many others a little too insensitive.

I just feel really cramped.Do yknow t feeling when you accidentaly stepped into an icy river and you get pulled into the water and youre searching for a hole where you can get out but youre trapped in ice and you cant get out.I feel like that. 

I really need Him.
Truth is i havent been t church in a month or so.
I feel absolutely horrible.

I just feel like breaking down and crying now.

 I think its time i start updating or ill never start blogging again.

Ive been staying home for t past four days to recouperate from my sickness.Right now,the fever has subsided to a mild one,but my cough is a killer,theres so much phlegm.I went t the doctor on monday and to Raffles Hospital at midnight.Fever has risen to 40 degrees.Been watching simpsons all day long and slacking.Dad came by on monday too.I felt better.Im so gonna miss out on a lot of work before i return.I think i need another 3 days till my cough fully recovers.Sweetheart came by on tuesday and we watched gossip girl for a while.I can't wait for season three t be released.That reminds me,i should go down t the video store t get some dvds to watch!:D

It's weird that everytime a big pandemic breaks out,i'd fall really sick and sent t the hospital-Sars and H1N1.weird.

My head feels really dizzy right now.I totally cant sing.I feel so helpless.Its t worst feeling ever.I pray it isnt permanent:/

Liverpool didn't win t title *shrugs*

Hero of War is an awesome song,go watch the video.Really touching.It touches on war prisoners torture sexual abuse.Just please watch it.

Im so fucking bored that i just googled "fucking bored"

Today's such a tiring day,after days of spending at my dad's ,im finally back home in my cosy little room(:
Ive just done my research on rock music for oral comm.im so dead beat.
Im growing fat.like bulging stomach and flabby hands and everything.
I just ate dinner a while ago and supper opps.
Liverpool won 3-0.
I bought August rush,Incredible hulk,never back down to watch.
I just realised i've quite a lot of homework t do.
Design Basics,My country my world,IT stuff.
Also ive t buy my camera lens cover,dust has been constantly filling the lens.
Spend friday at malaysia.
It was crowded at the checkpoints,
dad knocked into another car and he had t fork our $220 for nothing.
Bought couple of t shirts and a new hoodie t go along w them.
Watched Xmen Origins:i like Gambit
im still having t flu,so i cant sing for thurs jam session after sch.
I want t join SingaporeIdol,when i told my mom that she told me not t embarrass her and i threatened her that all her friends would laugh at her son who cant sing.HAHA
Attended the play at church today to see lena tearing twice w a red eye on her right to boast,
that silly billy.
Oh and i forgot t say i hate monday lectures,
but theres Monday night laughs on starworld so im happy and school ends at 3!
Im looking forward t listening t  sweethearts voice before i close my heavy eye lids.





 For what it's Worth,No one could ever compare to you.

 The Coffee is always richer on the other side

Lounging on the coach facing directly across the shophouses perched along Holland V.
I find my sanctuary in this little store,Starbucks Coffee Holland Village,
Soothing music being played in the background,Happy baristas greeting me upon my entry,the rain has just stopped leaving the sun splashing its rays across the cloudy sky,i sit in my comfortable area sipping my white chocolate ice blended,doing my newspaper report due in 2 hours,my drink is finished,and so is my newspaper report,i feel so much happier,i study the people around me,businessmen excitedly over coffee,housewives busy chirping at the latest gossip,other students like me rushing through their work,angry busy businesspeople smashing on their keyboard.

I love this place,find my here on every thursday morning indefinitely.


Just 12 hours ago,i was wiping my tears condemning myself to mexico.Life's a mystery.

 As my tears splatted dark blots onto my murky brown covers,i glimpsed at the night sky and say my last words.

I'm srsly tired of life.Im stressed up w school,friends,soccer,random fights,parents,time,homework and every other little nit bit on the planet.
I find it hard to just handle everything.
CCA,tennis,soccer,friends,mike newton,joker,groups,charity organising,crowded canteens,busy schedule,long fucking breaks in between lessons,late submissions,obnoxious school mates,irritating teachers,nosey parents,squabbling (going to happen),no more holidays oversea,just stress
I just want a quiet place where i can just rest.
I can't do it anymore.
Not any longer.
























I give up.

 I've been trying t find a topic t write about but i always come up short.

ANYWAY!
i'm so in love w summer dresses and scarves.
I wont wear t dresses!but it just looks ohsoadorable!


Sweetheart is going t london chicago vancouver and ive t stay in S'pore,doubt i'd go on a holiday since my teacher has assigned us projects.A few t be done during t 3 weeks break.I've a charity project t do for my country my world-planning some sort of a concert/bazarr.

Heading w sweetheart t have a picnic later at botanical gardens at 4:Di cant wait!I should go prepare t food now and think of how im going t find a mat t sit on.

I cant wait t get my next issue of AP!& im planning t get a few shirts online but t shipping is really horrible.

School has been kinda bitchy/shitty/fun.i feel like i had a boot to the face/kick in my ass.I got judged in my first week of school.Im struggling in my design basics,its srsly tough.I keep getting lost while im following every instruction on the notes and i find myself restarting photoshop thrice.I had two tests on business IT,serious nut.It was complex,RAM ROM SERVER.Too much t take.But i suppose i'll cope.

Planning for a guitar session on tuesday in between all of my breaks,im happy i dont have t spend too much time w my classmates (not like i dont like them,it just isnt that fantastic t be spending all of our time together.Variety:D)

Staying over at Dad's on Sunday so i could get t school faster:D I'm gonna start on ALL of my homework & revision.No slacking on sunday.Ive church too!im aiming t attend for youth and adult:DI can't wait.Ive not been praying t father for t past two days and i turned out really horrible.I assure you,its true.

And!Mom grounded me and she picks me up daily after school and sends me t school too.Gah.my entire freedom is being controlled.I feel like a bird in a cage coped up struggling t crawl out.

Soccer today was really uncomfortable in t beginning but changed towards the end:D
Didnt manage t turn in arnd 6 of my chances and my awesome goal was not counted:/
Before t 2nd half i prayed t father t help me,and he did.I came up w two goals and an awesome assist.
Father lord is the greatest.

Orientation was an absolute blast,i shouldnt be here,i shouldnt even be touching my computer,i should be snuggled under my sheets,in my dreams filled w too many a half baked ideas.Apparently mr smart guy thought he was a superhero and had t protect t world 24/7 thus skipping sleep t day before his orientation leaving him like a zombie,no worst than a zombie,somehow he managed t got on his feet and make new friends.My class has 21 students,w 6 boys in total,leaving t number of girls to      15.ughhhhh.leaving a ratio of boys t girls,1:2.Outnumbered!!Anyway t class is a pretty tight knit bunch,We had quite a lot of fun through t games,Be it playing w chairs,hopping around,making t faciltiles laugh , we had plenty of fun w our frequent toilet breaks and air cons.I can't wait for lessons t officially start,then i'd be able t get t know them even better.This could be t start of something new,totally awesome.

After orientation,Every instance i close my eyes,my body just switches off for a second before it jerks back into life.Bought food for sweetness at clementi, saw marion on t bus and engaged in a brief chat.Reached sweetness place and i toppled onto t pool bench,sweetheart was being unbelievably understanding and she let me lay beside her while she tugged in t dinner w/o me.She hailed me a cab t go home considering i could barely move,thats one of t many reasons why my girlfriend is so awesome.I feel so guilty but sweethearts constant reminder that its alright makes my boiling blood sooth.I love my sweetheart. 

Liverpool are playing at 245 later,it'd take a hell of a monster for me t crawl out of bed.Speaking of which my fingers are trying t pull itself away and pinch t sheets over my chest w my other hand clutching t my phone.i miss my sweetheart.

 Personal request from a friend since im a lazy bum.Anyhow,this week has been an absolute blast.

On Sunday,I had Oasis concert t attend to,Great music Great visual Sucky attitude.
Will touch on that w pictures in my next post.

Monday had chalet t celebrate Wendy's 7th birthday.Reached late at approx 9pm cause i had something on,but t rest used t time wendy picked me up t set up t cake.i helped!!Ate some bbq meaning two sausages and 2 prawn thingy thingy.Expensive BBQ!Played guitar till 3,taught the girls how t play guitar.We Sing Dance Steal things.Gossiped about stuff,actually t same old stuff but w additional emotions.Really funny.Desiree's Hokkien Funeral Song,Search for Two-face,Sing/Shout along session,Finding a pick that never was lost,Cake smashing (not on my face obviously),Eating honey from the bottle,Staying awake all t way t have NasiLemak as breakfast,Buying plastic foil when i was supposed t buy aluminium foil,Laughed at people having an "orgy" at t other chalet next door.Extremely fun chalet even though ive been having a hangover like headache that keeps drilling t next day,it was all Worth it.

Met Ryan t next day t have breakfast at his place,watch mars attack till it bored us,still having our hangover we planned t catch up on our sleep but ended up playing t guitar.I managed t fill in t bass track for t new song(: +93934633288432 for that!Headed t Orchard t buy his shoes,I've set my eyes on my Elliot White.I can't wait t get it!Ate wanton mee which to me was an apparent rip-off.Walked around orchard and settled down at Gloria Jeans outside cineleisure,bought our coffee and sat down t chill and talked.Learnt notes for my bass felt really accomplished.Left at 5ish.

Thursday was all a bore.Had a little fight which was t result of me,i feel absolutely horrible.But i know that's never gonna happen again and im relieved and glad that its over.Skipped French cause i felt terrible.Liverpool lost 3-1.Felt frigging frigging shit.Look at it at a bright angle,At least now they have more time t nick the Premierleague title from Manunited.Oh and did i mentioned that i stopped vegan after eating a kfc burger which i thought was fish but was actually chicken.CHEAT MY FEELINGS KFC!go back t slaughtering chickens w massive hormones added into it!Dieeeeeee!I think i lasted eleven days.Oh and i forgotten t go t my check up.Im gonna get expelled!DIEEE!And guess what for my orientation which starts on tues!i have a flag day on thursday how fun!but at least i dont have t go t school on wed!day off!wooh!And my first lesson that starts on 20th is design!noooo!i'm gonna fail my art!Call for help!Sweetheart S.O.S!

Anyway probably heading out t sweetheart's place t see her,i have yet t see her since tuesday.Horrible!i miss her so much.